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Sunday, December 9th, 2007
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5:46 pm
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One more semester left. AND THEN I'M DONE!!!!!
Fuck yeah.
I can almost taste my diploma.....yum
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| Monday, November 12th, 2007
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5:58 pm - Everytime I sign online, I forget to check this shit.
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This semester has been awful.
I'm so sick of school, I can't even stand to think about it. It's the same shit every semester, the same exact classes with the same boring teachers. Nothing ever changes. What happened to college being fun and interesting? I guessed I missed that part of it.
Also, my health is HORRIBLE. I was in the ER last night (again) for more digestive problems. Since my gall bladder surgery I've lost something like 25 pounds. This is not good. I feel sick, tired, weak, and stressed ALL THE FUCKIG TIME. I need a break, but the doctors can't figure out what's wrong with me. Someone tell me how this country spends so much money on healthcare/medicie/etc and they can't diagnose what the crap is wrong with me? Blahhhhh..
Needless to say I need to destress.
I NEED a change in my life. I need to be happy Steph again, without the stress of my body falling apart. I really need that.
I don't really know what to do and it sucks.
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| Wednesday, October 24th, 2007
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4:36 am - it's gotta be happy
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so i got a new puppy, Dexter!!!!! he's a mastiff, which is kinda crazy,but he totally fits into the little family that we have.
yay!
i'll post pictures once i have them.
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| Thursday, July 26th, 2007
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10:34 pm - RIP Stephanie's Gall Bladder
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So I was in all this pain last week and decided to go to the hospital. They admitted me and one day later I was in surgery getting my gall bladder removed!
How scary.
Needless to say I'm in bunches of pain and plan to rest.
Thank you to EVERYONE who visited me in the hospital. You have no idea how much it warmed my heart :)
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| Saturday, July 14th, 2007
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3:14 am
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I recently went off my birth control, and by recently I mean like a couple months ago. Ladies, the change is amazing. I feel so much more happy and energetic, especially over the past couple weeks. I'm doing things again and I don't feel as depressed and crappy.
It's amazing how much that stuff and some extra hormones can really affect your mood.
In the end, I've decided to stay off the birth control...although Mike is not too happy about that. I like myself better without it.
On that note, I've been searching for some sort of hobby lately. I started playing my violin again, but quickly realized that I am developing arthritis in my right hand. It hurts like a bitch and is probably a result of playing the violin for 19 years. Go figure.
So, as I was searching for something fun to do, I stumbled across motorcycles. Not like ugly harley davidsons or any of that foolishness...but a cool sporty girly street bike. I think I'm gonna do it. I can attend the training course either this summer or in the beginning of the fall and I have enough money to buy a beginners bike. I want a hot one. Haha
Anyways, I like this freedom to do something nobody (including myself) every thought I would or could do. I have the means, and I'm going for it.
See you on the road mother fuckers!
current mood:  happy
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| Saturday, May 26th, 2007
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8:33 pm
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1. Florida was awesome and we had sooo much fun!!!
2. I actually missed work (strange, huh?!)
3. I think we might move to Florida when we graduate
4. Em's shower/party was soooo fuuuun!!! I wish more people could have made it!
5. Em's wedding is going to be AMAZING!!! Y'all don't know what you're in for!
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| Monday, May 14th, 2007
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11:54 am - Updates!
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So here's a few little updates since I haven't written in this thing in forever:
1. I have fallen head over heels in love....with Coldstone ice cream mmmmmmm
2. I listen to the new Jennifer Lopez CD "Como ama una mujer" like a billion times a day.
3. My amazing boyfriend surprised me with Ricky Martin tickets for my 22nd bday and listened to me dance and sing along in spanish throughout the ENTIRE concert!!!!!
4. Mother's day was a little crazy, but I got my mom a really pretty diamond bracelet.
5. I'm so busy I never get to see anyone and it kinda sucks a whole lot.
6. It makes me really happy every time Gill, Tara, and Mike come visit me at Mylos.....it totally makes my night and I'm really happy that Gill and I are becoming good friends, she's a cool chica.
7. I really can't wait until tomorrow afternoon when I am completely done this dumb semester.
8. Mike and I are going to Florida for vacation in a week.
9. Emily's wedding will be fun.
10. I really hate school, still :)
current music: "Que hiciste"
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| Thursday, April 5th, 2007
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8:53 pm
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the fact that i have convinced nick to let me use his computer at mylos is BAD because i now spend even more time on myspace and livejournal.
hahaha
btw - i'm graduating for sure next spring :) yay me!
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| Tuesday, February 27th, 2007
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6:43 pm
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Due to some of my girly insecurities, I was always jealous and unsure about this girl Tara that Mike works with. However, I realized last night how completely STOOOOOOOPID that is when she came out with us. She was awesome.
Yay for new friends :)
current mood: satisfied
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| Friday, February 23rd, 2007
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4:07 pm
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3:49 pm
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unfortunately some people are two blind to see past their own intentions and pride...
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| Wednesday, February 21st, 2007
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4:57 pm - The lonest livejournal entry ever...
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The ability to self-analyze is extremely arduous and only develops with cognitive and intellectual maturity. Unfortunately, some people never gain the ability to turn the mirror away from others and onto themselves. However, if you are able to judge, criticize, and analyze others, you have the intellectually ability to analyze yourself.
In the long term, only good things can come from self-analyzing.
When I was growing up, I thought that the entire world was in the wrong. I thought that everyone from teachers to friends to my own family was only betraying me. I did not understand the importance of true familial and amicable relationships. However, when I was about eighteen years old, I realized the source of my problems, the man that molested me for almost five years.
Determining the source is only the first step.
Now I had to get up, get out, and do something about it. Unfortunately, at this point I was so tangled in a sick and discombobulated world that I had alienated everyone I had ever met. I had no friends in my life. I moved out at 17 and hadn’t talked to my family in years. I was taken against my will one thousand miles away from my home and had no contact with another human being except for the man that was molesting me and a little black lab.
Now here’s an interesting dilemma.
However, there is hope. I slowly began digging myself out of the trenches one day at a time. I called up old friends and my family and to my astonishment, it was as if no time had passed at all. They all welcomed me back into their life, more loving than ever.
The loyalty of your friends will constantly surprise you.
Over time, I grew up and out of my past, but my problems never ceased to exist. I treated people poorly, I was judgmental, I was degrading, I felt I was superior, and I had an argument for everything.
Two years after I escaped my life of violence and molestation, I began realizing the problems that had developed from that horror and how they were affecting myself and other people. It was time to do a true analysis of myself and fix the core issues or I knew I would end up all alone, a cynical old woman raising kids and passing the same damn problems onto them.
I don’t want to be another statistic.
I am coming up on my twenty-second birthday and the progress I have made is amazing. I am doing well for myself.
Through the ordeal that has been my life, I have learned several things:
1. always make sure you are living your life in the most productive way
2. do a double take every now and then
3. stop blaming other people for your own problems and do something about it
4. don’t loose friendships over petty circumstances
5. always know that there are people out there that love you wholeheartedly
6. don’t let your denial eat you alive and alienate you from everyone – you will find you are happier once you start admitting to and dealing with your problems
I hope at least one person can learn from my life and the crazy road I have traveled in the past.
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| Sunday, February 18th, 2007
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5:47 pm - I JUST WANT SOME FUCKIN STABILITY
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Stupidity and immaturity have shown their pretty little faces yet again in my life. I thought everyone in my life was old enough to ignore those demons, but unfortunately I guess many of us never make it out of high school alive.
True friends and family are supposed to be there by your side until the end. They are to be open and trusting of you unless you give them a valid fucking reason not to be.
It's a pity and I wish I had it in myself to forgive and forget, but my anger and a feeling of betrayal are eating me alive.
I guess my anger and annoyance are only fueling the problem that many probably can't even see. No matter. I am well aware of it and unlike others, I know how to control my stupidity.
I think time will heal everything like it always seems to do, I just hope that we can make it peacefully until then.
Then again, maybe I'm overreacting.
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| Wednesday, February 7th, 2007
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8:58 pm
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12:11 am
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Apply this to your life in 2007:
If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ......
LET IT GO!!!
If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth.....
LET IT GO!!!
If someone has angered you ........
LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge......
LET IT GO!!!
If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction.....
LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents
LET IT GO!!!
If you have a bad attitude.......
LET IT GO!!!
If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better......
LET IT GO!!!
If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in
Him......
LET IT GO!!!
If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship.................
LET IT GO!!!
If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves.....
LET IT GO!!!
If you're feeling depressed and stressed ........
LET IT GO!!!
If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "take your hands off of it," then you need to......
LET IT GO!!!
Let the past be the past. Forget the former things. GOD is doing a new thing for 2007!!!
LET IT GO!!!
Get Right or Get Left .. think about it, and then .
LET IT GO!!!
Then again, if everyone followed this livejournal might go out of business.....
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| Tuesday, February 6th, 2007
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11:52 pm - Some Random Thoughts of Mine
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1. Gillian, you are not fat my dear.
2. I haven't been this cold in my life, ever. I want to move back to Florida.
3. School is good and I love my classes this semester.
4. I laughed so much last night that my face hurts (unfortunately so does my head).
5. People constantly surprise me.
6. My name is Stephanie and this is MY life.
7. I have an amazingly supportive, loving, and understanding boyfriend that doesn't judge me.
8. Ringo is getting big and has started humping Mijo who just sits there and takes it like a big baby.
9. I found my Dixie Chicks CD and it's making me smile...so does Kelly Clarkson.
10. I miss country day girls a whole bunch.
current mood: grateful
current music: Dixie Chicks
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| Monday, February 5th, 2007
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| Friday, January 5th, 2007
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10:32 am
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I had a great fun filled Christmas with all the people I love. It feels so nice to feel like I truly belong to a loving family. This Christmas is the beginning of good Christmas memories...
Mike, Bryan, family, and I are leaving in EIGHT days for Arizona/Vegas!!!! I'm so fucking excited!!! I don't really gamble....I just want to see the pretty lights and Bryan run 26 miles....haha
EMILY BABCOCK! - I can't believe you are moving to Romania so soon!!!! YOU SUCK! I'm going to miss you terribly....I will be visiting though, you can count on that. (PS - I don't know if you know, but I ordered the bridesmaid dress in the beginning of december)
Everyone start writing again....I want updates!
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| Friday, November 24th, 2006
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11:17 pm - Gobble Gobble
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Thanksgiving has filled me up for about a month...I'm good to go into hibernation now. Mike and I went to my grandmother's house for our first dinner and I must say that the evening was as entertaining as ever. My grandfather is more and more senile everyday leaving evey guest a dollar coin by their plate for no apparent reason whatsoever. He kept making sure that people wouldn't forget their coins and that they should save them and open a bank account. He then started blabbing on and on about how he wants to become a DJ who performs at weddings and demonstrated his DJing skills by playing "Copa Cabana" on his electric keyboard in the basement.
Meanwhile, Jenny and I almost slit each others throats for no apparent reason whatsoever, we still love each other.
My grandmother's OCD was at it's peak.
Richie suddenly has a love for the color "prison inmate orange" and pointed out everything in the LL Bean catalog that he wanted for Christmas, but only if I got him prison inmate orange.
We then went to Mike's family for Thanksgiving which makes my family seem like they belong in a mental hospital. It was lovely with amazing Ms. Andy food, Ringo, a nice cozy fireplace, my extended family, Grandad's war stories, and Ringo. Quite lovely.
I got to see Em and Beth on Wednesday and it made me oh so happy. I miss my girls since I'm always around boys, although I love my boys dearly. You girls are doing amazing things and I'm always impressed when I hear about what's going on in your lives. I'm so proud of everyone in my life and that's such an awesome feeling. The only thing I regret was staying out with Beth, Bryan, Adam, and Mike at the diner until 4 in the morning, I'm just not as young as I used to be :)
Tomorrow is dress shopping with Emdiggity, work, and then a lovely evening with Toria and the girls. I'm excited to see Victoria, I think she's the one I have seen the least since high school.
Happy Turkey Day/Vacation time everyone...this is the first Thanksgiving where I've really appreciated my family and my newly acquired extended family. It's so nice to finally belong somewhere.
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| Sunday, November 19th, 2006
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10:14 pm
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I'm super duper excited so many of my girls are coming home this week AND I don't have class Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday.
YAY!
current mood:  excited
current music: Mike breathing too loud
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